hectic,

ini entry luahan monolog diri,

sigh,

i am..

seriously,
emotional unstable nak mengadap kerje dan manusia,
kerje itu ini pastu nak ngadap orang sana sini sinun,
tinggal 3 minggu je for the classes
i have to struggle like mad witch to
complete my final works
and yet few events coming up,
excited la juge but in the same time,
killing me head softly,
pening akuh.

when ayah used to said to me
when he still working with the gov.
ayah ade byk tanggungjawab..
it always remind me everytime bile tgh pikir sorang sorang,
and now me
myself pun,
ade byk tanggungjawab.
naked eyes only view me
as a student,
as anak tunggal
as kawan gelak tawa
as teman seperjuangan
as a muslim
but the thing is
byk lg sebenarnye..
it will be a long list
so i just bare it in mind,

i am tired
tapi lagi penat
bile kite asyik mengharap je,
not too say im always mengharap,but in certain things,
theres always a thing yg membuat
kite mengharap kan,

sometimes i do rely too much on people for support,i think
but whenever if felt left alone,
i felt deteriorate,

doesnt it make you feel better to be nice and
doesnt it make it you happy when you could do wonderful for the others.

thats it.

and i cant stand people assuming,
instead of finding it out.

kenape?

malas nak cari kebenaran.

im sick of looking orang melayu yg me-layu kan diri mereka,


i hates being plastics,
it look so spasctic to you if you are,
i hate the fact that
politics are everywhere.

politicsareplastickindofspacsticsarcrasticpatheticsympathetic.





-yaAllah,
astaghafirullah hal azim...